Very angry. I’ve had a migraine for two days. Anyone who’s ever HAD a migraine, even for an hour or so (I don’t know anyone lucky enough to only HAVE them for an hour and I know I’m lucky because mine only last half a day usually) knows that they are awful. As in
I have a history of migraines. I tend to get them when I have stress and then calm down…you know, like when I’m jobless and trying to write and can’t find a job or write and then decide “Hey, it’ll work out!” My ability to finally relax is rewarded with the Cranial Wars. Bombs and little stabby knives are doing things in my brain.
About two or three years ago, when I was a flight attendant, they got so bad that when I had an unrelated eye thing and went to the eye doctor and TOLD him about my headaches he sent me to a specialist at the Cleveland Clinic…which is kind of a big deal. Then they sent me to a BIGGER deal specialist who wanted to check for brain tumors. On the plus side, it stressed me out again and the headaches went away.
After an MRI, a spinal tap and an eyeball ultrasound they shrugged their shoulders and sent me to the family doctor, who asked me two questions, laughed and then told me they were only migraines. *sigh at the American health care system… I DID manage to get some cool things out of the deal. 1. I got to be investigated by a cute med student when the eyeball ultrasound lady messed up and scratched my eye repeatedly when she didn’t put enough goop into my eyeball. 2. I got this…
Here is a close up…
How many people have pictures of their own brain hanging on their bedroom wall surrounded by really cool cards with Buddhist quotes on them and pirate flags tucked behind the frame? Probably only one. And that one is me. 🙂
The downside is that I’m not getting much writing done. Since last week wasn’t very productive, I’m thinking when I jump back in (maybe later tonight) that I’m going to have to start from the beginning and edit my way to where I left off. This should actually be helpful, because it’ll give me another crack at that pesky Gabe scene and I’ll get to fill in some stuff that I know is lacking. So…thanks…migraines????